Its my choice, the right choice.

I grew up in a single parent home with two other siblings. My mother did her best to provide what we needed, even if that meant working two jobs-7 days a week. I look back at the hell I gave her and I wonder if things would of been different had there been a second parent or if my mom had more time to be around. I love my mother very much for everything shes done. She has always put her children before herself, and I can now see that some of that has rubbed off on me.

Before I became pregnant, I was making plans to return to school and finish the Business degree I started years back. I also was in search a job that was flexible with a possible school schedule. As soon as I found out I was pregnant my objective changed. Those goals were set aside and a new agenda was in its place. My focus was now on the growing a child inside me and how I was going to be a mother to him. I took special care to eat right and to get enough exercise. I read everything I could about becoming a new parent and never thought twice about becoming a stay at home mom. Other mothers around me seem to be itching to work right away and itching to get away. (Not that that makes them any less of a parent. I understand its normal to want to do things and have time for yourself as well) There was a never a doubt for us that I would be a stay at home mom; its what I want and love. We are fortunate enough that Rowdy is able to work and I stay home; and Rowdy supports that 100%. But seeing them be so anxious to get back to pre-baby life made me feel like I was doing something wrong. Am I wrong for choosing to not be separate from my son, even for the slightest bit of time? I dont want someone thats not family raising my baby, thats our job.

Well now baby is 7months old and I still focus primarily on him. I still plan on going back to school, maybe when he starts going to kindergarden and I can go during those few hours. Then later on when he [and any other children we have] are more independent I would like to start up my business. But right now, with this precious baby growing before my eyes, school and work is not important. Being available to support and give a sense of security to our son is our number one priority. If that means putting school and work aside, then thats the sacrifice.